The way to heaven is always through hell. Hell tempts with a thousand vices and amusements. "Stay," he says, " boy, with us, you will be our king." The meaning of hell is to teach a person restraint and self-control. Vices are overkill and always evil, no matter how beautiful and tempting they may seem at first.
You can go to hell faulty of the soul in which there is no love. The essence of being is the separation of the grain from the chaff. The seeds are those who have love in them, and God takes them to Paradise. The tares are those in whom there is no love and the Reaper (the devil) takes them to hell. More precisely, the tares themselves go to hell, the devil, as can, prevents them, because hell is already full… but the tares are persistent in their thirst for Vice.
What is pride? Lust for Vice! Thirst the moth goes to hell. The proud like hell very much; the devil has deceived them by building a hell much better than Paradise. The proud are ready to bite each other's throats for the right to be in hell.
Especially harmful is too much pleasure and food for an old person. It seems that you need to be happy before you die, but this is not so. All these joys monstrously destroy the health and psyche, causing a person to rot alive. Asceticism and some activities or work will help you live through old age without unnecessary suffering.
The essence of the incredible ease of being is that in order to get to hell, you need to make a great effort. Hell is full and there are no places. Moths are ready to bite each other's throats for the right to be in hell. In Paradise, on the contrary, it is free and spacious. No one needs Paradise except those who have love in them.
Divide and rule in the sense that although God is one, ... but faith, hope and love are not only to be divided between each other, but also in half between the inner and outer world. In fact, the six-pointed star is a symbol of division God is divided into six parts. If God will unite into one whole, he will instantly turn into a devil and Hellfire will consume your entire life.
Your problem is that you are looking for positive emotions, and you should be looking for bad ones. The point is that everything we run after runs away from us, and everything we run from runs after us. Plus, we quickly get used to the good, and we start to be afraid of the bad, like fire. Fear kills faith, paralyzing movement. Faith is the ability to move. As a result, our life turns into hell when we are filled with fear.
You say you need to buy time, but why do you need time? You want to flush all your time down the toilet? Do you like delicious food, rest and fun? Congratulations, your life is a living hell, but you already know that.
There is no heaven or hell… There is a real world where some people imagine hell and others don't… Until a person comes to terms with reality and leaves his stupid dreams of Paradise, he will live in hell and suffer, because ... everything is Paradise, and breaking the commandment "do not judge" is a direct ticket to the hell of his own illusions.