In 80% of cases, a person pays for his sins, 20% for someone else's. What people call an accident is 80% payback for someone else's sins and 20% for their own.
Disease is a punishment. The ill man is doomed to suffer and the medicines will purposefully be bitter and unpleasant, so that the next time the person does not make mistakes.
The essence of Dostoevsky's "Crime and punishment" is inversely opposed to Nabokov's lolita. If Nabokov's evil was beautiful and love for him became a source of suffering, Dostoevsky's evil is disgusting, but hatred for him also does not lead to anything good. That you love beautiful evil, that you hate disgusting evil, you will still go to hell, and there will be no other way.
No one cares why you broke the rules. For breaking the rules you will be punished with a whip. But we can sympathize with you and it will ease your suffering.
Capital punishment is a salvation and mercy for many criminals, their yearning for self-destruction makes them happy. A suicide is happy, but he can be punished with a terrifying and very long life.
Self-destruction is joy for many criminals. Their pain and fear of life make them unconsciously wish to run away, they want everything to come to an end… They do whatever it takes to end up caught and punished.
Guilt gives rise to the expectation of punishment, and therefore, perpetual anxiety and fear. By the way, the more cowardly a person is, the more guilty he feels. Men of courage are not apt to suffer.
Punishments generate power, because they drive out cowardice and lies from people. A person gets better. Likes-means beats. We love those who beat us, because they make us better, stronger, more honest...
The one who judges thinks himself superior, thinks himself a judge, and therefore falls into pride, because we are all equal to each other. Even more painful is the one who, in his pride, judges God, trying to judge reality.
God is love. God is the law. Violation of the laws of love is called pride and inevitably fills a person's life with fear and suffering. The lawbreaker may avoid retribution, but he cannot escape from fear and anxiety. Criminals do not sleep well, their life begins to resemble a dream, and their dreams are nightmares. You have to drown out your fears with vices, and vices are a direct ticket to hell.
Your unwillingness to pay for your sins only increases your suffering. Remember, it is one thing for you to have nothing to pay for your sins, and quite another for your pride to interfere with your repentance. God is merciful and forgives those who have nothing to pay, but those who do not want to pay will be punished terribly.