Those who resist reality go mad. In order for the real world to stop being maddening, you must stop resisting it. The world is good and perfect, nothing in it just happens. Therefore, enjoy everything that happens, look for the benefit of it and you will be happy. Feel the reality, enjoy every moment, everything that happens is happening on purpose, because you really need it. Your attempt to escape from reality is a monstrous folly and an attempt to escape from yourself.
It is dangerous to love illusions in isolation from reality. Such love creates a fear of reality and creates impassability. The reason for the existence of illusions to become reality, if you are afraid of reality, it will not happen.
Having reached a certain state when everything is very good, the person decides to stop. But how to stop the movement of life? Right! A person falls into vices and illusions, forgetting about the real world.
Your problem is that you are sitting inside yourself, you are too focused on your loved one. You're running away from the real world. To escape from fear, focus on people and things, on work and goals.
Escape from reality is the displacement of your problems, fears, and pain. Having pushed out of himself everything that he does not like, the person remains naked and defenseless in the world of his sweet illusions.
Escape from reality creates a loss of immunity to reality and makes it impossible to return to reality. At the same time, a person becomes extremely vulnerable to reality and falls into a chronic fear.
It is interesting that first an overdose of emotions generates escape from reality, inattention and distraction, and then this state generates depression. The most important symptom of depression is obsession. If you can fixate on work or learning as a source of joy, it will be very useful.
The purpose of these people's lives is to earn enough money to escape from reality and turn their lives into their dreams. They like to live in a dream, but they do not like real life, that is, the truth.
There is no heaven or hell… There is a real world where some people imagine hell and others don't… Until a person comes to terms with reality and leaves his stupid dreams of Paradise, he will live in hell and suffer, because ... everything is Paradise, and breaking the commandment "do not judge" is a direct ticket to the hell of his own illusions.
Your chronic fatigue is due to the fact that you are fighting your fears by erecting a barrier of denial against them. Fears need not be feared, fear is a friend... it comes not to destroy, but to save from Vice and sin.