What does it mean to help the growing? By helping one, you're interfering with the other. It would be fair to interfere with everyone, and then the strongest will win.
By taking something without paying a fair price, you are violating the commandment " thou shalt not steal." Theft is a mortal sin, now your suffering is inevitable. The only thing that can save you is to serve God.
The lie is pride. When you lie, you deny reality, you want to be better than it is. Reality is God. Better God themselves believes the Devil, for that and is ablaze in hell. You burn in hell too, fair enough.
Justice is when everyone gets what he deserves. However, we often hear about forgiveness. They say “Forgive them their sins”, and I will add… “Forgive them their virtues”. If a sin does not require punishment, virtue should not ask for a reward either.
The essence of freedom of choice is that you can do anything you're willing to pay for. However, the world is fair, you will still pay for your desires, whether you like it or not.
Let's be honest, depression is a symbol of justice. A sinner burns in hell and that's right. Until the sinner repents and burns his false beliefs, that's where he belongs.
Trees must be hurt when they are cut down and corpses burned like firewood. You say your pain is unfair. Have you thought of the suffering of those whom you have destroyed?