Sometimes there is something that you should do. But you haven't done it. And now your conscience is bothering you and you sleep badly and think about it all the time. Having repented several times, you could have got it done, but... You're making things complicated. Just do what you should and sleep with a quiet mind.
Placid conscience is free from fear. What people call dirty conscience is not dirt at all, it’s the mold of fear, eroding soul painfully. A person fears his wrong acts. He fears consequences of these acts. He knows they always come back, but he doesn’t know when. Now he is doomed to sleep bad and even food and luxury don’t bring him much pleasure now. He is constantly waiting. His body is strained and ready for jump to slit their throats. The mobilization mode consumes ten times more energy and renders body useless quickly. Many various diseases emerge in a useless body at once. Pain slowly torments every vein, every nerve. Truly unhappy is the person, he should have better repented and paid for his mistakes voluntarily.
Why does repenting mean? And is there a way to know whether providence accepts one's repentance? Conscience is the main judge of repentance. If conscience became silent, it means everything is fine but if one feels the bar of conscience, then repentance wasn't enough...
The heavier one's sin is, the more one should repent.
Remorse corrodes the back of the head with acid. Did I do the right thing? Could I have done better? Have I failed these people? Yeah, whatever! I did the right thing and it was the only true version of reality from which we learned valuable experience. I'M ABSOLUTELY RIGHT. Absolute faith in their rightness and purpose – the perfect cure for unnecessary thoughts and headaches. I work for beauty and truth, individual idols don't matter.
Passion and vices, there is something deeply shameful and unnecessary. You can deny it, you can not deny it, but the soul feels it, and therefore it is tormented by remorse, fears, anxiety... and to be saved, it makes the mind suffer.
Sins-a terrible thing in the play "the Storm" Catherine, cheating on her husband, falls into a paranoia of fear and suspiciousness. You remember that fear is the devil, the father of lies and stupidity. As a result, it ends with the fact that, unable to stand the pangs of conscience, on her knees she confesses everything to her husband, further aggravating the situation. In my practice of psychotherapy I have seen a similar picture many times, and I want to say that the motive here lies deeper than it seems. It's all the fault of cognitive dissonance and subconscious desire to break the glass house.
If you control your anger, you can turn it into guilt, and it will cause you pain. But if you control your anger, you can turn it into resentment. But if you don't control your anger, you can turn it into remorse. From everything you can benefit as well as harm, both joy and suffering.
Conscience is a controlling signal system that shows what you do wrong. The more it tortures you, the worse the mistake you did was. The nature wants you to remember and learn from your mistakes. And now when you realized everything and regret it, the signal can be switched off as there's no need for it to keep you up all night.