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The Despair of Existence.


This world wasn't created for human happiness and no hamster can get out of its spinning wheel. However, running in the wheel brings pleasure to a hamster and walking in blind mazes gives the feeling of illusionary freedom. Whatever we may do, we can't avoid a stick. And even if we have a choice, we don't feel like choosing it.

This world consists of contradictions. We are aimed at both freedom and order, but these are two different directions. Something that we want most kills us and attainment of perfection- the goal of our life- means its end as well.

 


   

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Foreword


14.   AR AR

It's  not  necessary  to  look  for  sense  in  everything.  Many  things  happen  without  any  sense,  but  out  of  nature's  love  for  diversity. 

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Art by Martin Anderson

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21.   AR AR

Having  got  into  another  dead  end…  out  of  desperation,  I  decided  to  hit  my  head  against  the  wall  and  suddenly  broke  it... 

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26.   AR AR

If  in  a  maze  all  ways  lead  to  dead  ends,  it's  not  fair  but...  quite  true  to  life. 

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Art by Evgeniy Slinko

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34.   AR AR

Screaming rent bills.,
yelled the account of the credits,
screaming your expense receipts,
........and then came silence,
........I'm deaf.

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36.   AR AR

Sad fate of sardines in the Bank
they'll be eaten soon...

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42.   AR AR

The  crowd`s  foolishness  consists  of  the  wisdom  and  irony  of 
every  single  person  filling  it... 
That  is,  wisdom,  gathered  in  the  crowd,  becomes 
foolishness,  and  foolishness,  fallen  to  pieces, 
becomes  the  ironic,  all  knowing  wisdom...

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52.   AR AR

Is  it  possible  not  to  let  circumstances  take 
control  over  you?  As  if  they  really 
obey... 

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525.   AR AR

Smoothly changing the reasons to cry,  -
so and live.

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553.   AR AR

Any  life  is  like  a  cupboard  full  of  belongings… 

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10.3730.   AR AR

Fish live in dream under water.  The real above-ground world hurts Pisces.  As the glass fish walking on land, the pain makes them Wake up.

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10.6114.   AR AR

A person is always dissatisfied with something, and this is fine.  As long as there is discontent, there is life.  You should be happy with your discontent.  Discontent means that there is work, there is a hell that can be turned into heaven.

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10.6115.   AR AR

Man is light, the meaning of man's life is to find hell and darkness to light them up and turn them into Paradise.

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2175.   AR AR

A  man  living  in  his  sleep,  sleeps  in  reality. 
As  he's  a  happy  hero  in  his  sleep  and  an  unhappy  slave  in  real  life. 
What  a  bad  dream.  Maybe  it's  better  to  wake  up? 

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2173.   AR AR

Bleak... people - God gave him joy.
- Why such atrocities? His sins must be terrible…

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2114.   AR AR

Every  person  would  like  to  perform  a  feat.  Too  bad  there  are  not  enough  feats  for  everyone. 

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2105.   AR AR

Run  away...  To  run  away... 
But  will  you  run  away  far  from  yourself? 

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1992.   AR AR

Sometimes  life  goes  like  this:  something  bad  turns  into  something  even  worse. 
And  one  may  look  back  on  the  past  to  think... 
-  Ah,  how  nice  it  all  used  to  be. 

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1192.   AR AR

Death  is  not  the  scariest  thing  in  this  life… 

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1173.   AR AR

It's  not  awful  if  one  gets  into  a  dead  end,  but  it's  awful  when  one  remains  there... 

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1055.   AR AR

Sometimes you just want to self-destruct.

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1005. [In brevi]   AR AR

There  is  a  category  of  people  that  I  call  "dumb  threat"  to  public  morals. 
Their  purity  makes  people  around  seem  dirty... 

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992. The abyss of loneliness has no bottom.   AR AR

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967.   AR AR

Mass  media  is  a  dangerous  thing...  If  day  after  day  one  is  told  that  black  is  white  then  it  will  take  one  only  a  couple  of  months  to  believe  that... 

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565.   AR AR

At the funeral...  on their . shed tears…
At the funeral...  on their . laugh much…

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561.   AR AR

Freedom  is  an  ephemeral  thing: 
the  more  of  it  the  less  of  it… 

…  one  may  have  more  freedom  even  being  put  in  straitjacket, 
than  another  who  puts  the  one  into  it. 

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555.   AR AR

Any  life  is  like  a  cupboard… 
Petrified  with  horror,  a  man  sits  in  it 
in  the  pile  of  various  belongings… 
afraid  of  losing  it… 

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554.   AR AR

The  reason  was  tiiiny  as  a  thumbtack  on  the  chair 
but  the  consequence  was  big  as  a  crazy  elephant  that  sat  on  it… 

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507. [In brevi]   AR AR

It  feels  so  good  that, 
makes  one  wanna  croak. 

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Art by Atatanah (Ruslan Shaumetov)

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2192.   AR AR

Things  turn  to  dust.  It's  their  destiny. 

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The beginning of the book


6.   AR AR

Many are tormented by the question:
what is the meaning of being?
The question is why...
I here is, suppose, know,
but is it something 
changes?

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12.   AR AR

I feel like a lightbulb., 
which the host includes a kick of the foot
on the switch...
I dissatisfied spark,
but the master needs light...
No alternative options
he's not even considering.

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23.   AR AR

I'm looking at you through a telescope  -
you live on the other end of the telescope.,
you're huge to me,
I'm the point for you.

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28.   AR AR

Recent years 
I was haunted by the thought 
or rather, fear,
that maybe I'm gone.…
I is an illusion, a fiction or
just a couple of shots in the movie,
which is over.
To overcome this fear,
I got myself a mirror  -
small mirror,
which I kept in my jacket pocket.
and took out every 10 minutes,
to look at it and make sure,
that I still on place,
that I still exist.

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43.   AR AR

The life of an ordinary person is dull and gray,
full of unfulfilled desires, moralized
norms and stupid restrictions...  In essence, 
it's the life of ants and bees.  Hives and anthills
give freedom within a strict framework and rules.
But there are nuances: if it were so, as 
it seems, then why do nature needs people,
wouldn't it have been easier to make do with bees and ants?
It's worth thinking about...

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46.   AR AR

We never take off our masks...
We live in masks.
We are changing the masks from one to another. 
......And it makes perfect sense.
Why would anyone see and know,
what they are  - 
    ...real people:
psychopaths, feeble-minded, obsessed,
the vengeful, sadists, killers.
Masks are much more human...

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47.   AR AR

Standard person
with factory emotions,
school ideals,
television soul,
a news brain,
uniquely typed
external shape
used:
working outdoors,
housework,
sex and reproduction,
consumption of goods,
elections and voting,
etc...
Resource: 30-70 years.
Material: natural, eco-friendly.
Power consumption: bread, circuses, and sex.
The price is negotiable, depending on:
age, shape, useful skills and connections.

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49.   AR AR

I  was  being  an  idiot, 
as  round  as  a  football, 
no  wonder 
they  liked  to  kick  me  so  much.

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55.   AR AR

All human life is, in essence, a process
endless flight from their own suffering...
It's hard for me to remember even a day of my life,
free from that feeling... 
And everything I've ever done in my life has been done exclusively.,
to stifle this unpleasant feeling...
So when some simpleton calls out
to the Lord with a question for which he makes 
people suffer... I just smile;
I remember a squirrel in a wheel and I think what
still perpetual motion this God ponapridumyvali
our sinful souls...

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56.   AR AR

We're doing little things and waiting for death...
However, to imagine life as meaningless
the process is nihilism.  In fact, we were created to work.

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57.   AR AR

Just one birthday.
kills so many trees...
...sacrifice the tree for a birthday
God.…
druids would be furious.…

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59.   AR AR

People who love loneliness is a myth…
One who considers himself to be the add-on,
probably a schizophrenic with a bifurcation. 
personality; his eternal companion 
never leaves him for a second.,
and the company of other people prevents
talk to yourself.

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60.   AR AR

The ocean beats, crawls back and forth.
And in it, as in soup,
poor fish swims, eats each other,
Yes, and someone from somewhere in heaven
constantly to itself drags away...
...maybe the best
taken to heaven?

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62.   AR AR

How many times have you died, man?
- None?
- Boy...

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69.   AR AR

The world is always beautiful,
even when some lives
within its sad  …
I will say more: think about how much
insects die in a minute...
And relax.
Never mind.,
in the world, which 
always beautiful.

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71.   AR AR

We  try  others'  misfortunes  on  ourselves, 
we  try  others'  victories  on  ourselves, 
we  try  others'  life  on  ourselves, 
we've  got  nothing  belonging  to  us... 

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95.   AR AR

Unhappy...
For you, loneliness is a split personality.
It takes a couple of years and you have nothing to say to each other...
Take an example from me - alone I am tenfold ...

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101.   AR AR

And here is the wall before me
no cracks,
brilliant impregnable monolith,
in places red spots from blood
and my broken forehead is bleeding...
I'm breaking this wall with my forehead...
not a day, not a month, not a year...
I hit and hands, hit and feet,
I dug under it;
tried to, as a grasshopper punch,
like a Sparrow flying,
but as before,
this wall ...I'm in front of her...
...  insanely time sorry...
To hell!
I turned around and walked 
the steppes...
And those walls, 
whining, fled on the heels of,
like shadows...

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102.   AR AR

The  land  is  full  of  the  dead,
the  air's  still  full  of  the  living
but  don't  be  afraid…
All  of  us  will  turn  into  coal,
all  of  us  will  turn  into  oil.
The  world  under  the  leaves.
Are  you  afraid  of  the  lions?
How  often  do  lions  eat  people.
Don't  count.  trust  me,  very  little.
Just  remember:
your  real  enemies  are  insects,
in  the  end,
they  eat  up  each  of  us...

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103.   AR AR

What is a book,
not like a handful of someone else's fate,
that with hunger
shove it in...
Chewing, choking
and then you fall asleep full.
Here is, for example, the plot:
conic rode dude whistles,
blow from all the dope on the petals of mills...
everyone in his own way:
who is stronger, and
who and make-believe...
Metaphor, perhaps…
Well, who knows.
But the plot dynamic,
with a sense of humor...
We set off...

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