The novel "Anna Karenina" is a symbol of neuroticism and ode to fear. Neurotics are very afraid of everything new, afraid of the future, because the unknown can break their glass house of illusions. The locomotive, as a symbol of the unstoppable future, breaks into the illusion and destroying it, in the end, kills Anna, and maybe only her illusions. After all, what killed Anna in the hands of her son Seryozha we see at the end of the novel only as an ordinary toy.
Suspiciousness is the image of a Locomotive in Tolstoy's novel Anna Karenina. The novel begins with the engine, then it catches Anna, and then a toy steam engine plays her son Sergei.
Pride is such a locomotive, sitting on which, you will not get off. Pride precedes a fall, a crash is inevitable, and if you escape from the train, fate will still catch up with you.
They say prodigies are when fast… But quickly it is greedy haste, pride and, therefore, suffering. The desire to run ahead of the locomotive has nothing to do with genius, rather, it is psychosis and fear.
The meaning of life is change, but life is the flow of water. I don't see the point in rushing and running ahead of the engine. I see no point in resisting the current and trying to stop the train.
A moment drags a moment. Moments pass like trains. What about me? And I jumped into one of them and also go somewhere. From moment to moment. Tick-tock. I imagined myself as a second hand, not the one that runs like crazy, but slow and short. This, of course, pride, but I imagined myself an hour. I am the hour.
Playing locomotives is the most favorite occupation of a person. As you behave to people, so they behave to you. It seems to sound trite, but everything is much more cunning. You behave in a certain way with one person, but when you find yourself in a similar situation, on the other hand, other people will behave with you in the same way as you behaved before. For example, you deceived one person, and someone else deceived you. You refused one person, another refused you. You are asked, you refuse. You ask, you are denied. The beggar asked for money, you didn't give it to him. You asked the boss for a raise, he didn't give it to you. Everything is fair. God is one. You deny God, God refuses you.
Neurosis and psychosis are one and the same thing, but neurosis is a situation where the engine is allowed to let off steam through neurotic symptoms, which saves it from exploding. Explosion is a symptom of psychosis.
The game of locomotives is a situation when you deceive other people's hopes, and at the same time the cosmos brings down your hopes. The fact is that hope is one. When they hope in you and you hope, it is the same hope.
Moving towards the ideal requires restraint, busting generates turning space inside out. You passionately ran to the ideal, saw it ahead of you, accelerated like a locomotive. Everything works out for you, victory is close and visible. You're already congratulating yourself on your victory. A little later you notice that the ideal is behind you, but you can not turn around, you are too accelerated. This is a terrible and harsh truth of life. All idealists are burning on this.
It is very difficult for a narcissist to see and realize himself, but he sees other narcissists perfectly. A speck in someone else's eye seems like a log. The narcissist is like a mirror to the narcissist. Narcissus beats against the mirror like a fish on ice, demanding from that respect and recognition of their own, so-called value. Until the Mirror tells you how beautiful Narcissus is, Narcissus will keep banging his head against the wall. The narcissist cannot bear to be disrespected and unappreciated. Therefore, all narcissists are attached to each other like steam trains.
There are two models by which our world works. Model mirror and model locomotive. The Mirror model is when " do not do to others what you do not want for yourself." As you, so to you. As you awaken, so you will respond. The model of the locomotive is the realization that there are many mirrors, so you do evil to one person, and you get the answer from another. You were rude to a cat, and a dog bit you.
An idolater and an idol are one and the same person. I have noticed that at first a man thinks he is an idol, and then Providence punishes him by turning him into an idolater. The narcissist suffers from two sides at once, it is painful for him to be an idol and it is painful for him to be an idolater. Suffering seems to tear the unfortunate from two sides. On the other hand, these two Super-values tear the narcissist apart, and then suffering overwhelms him from within. I call it cubic suffering.
Problem? Is everything bad? A catastrophe, and you can not live like this? We recall Anna Karenina, who blew the locomotive out of a fly and threw herself under it. At the same time, after this incident, there were still half a hundred pages in the book, from which it followed that the problem of the locomotive was greatly exaggerated. In this sense, you do not need to turn your desires, fears and problems into a super-value.
How to look at the offense in an unthinkable way? Resentment hurts you, resentment is bad. What if I say that resentment is good and pain pleases you? You wanted it, and the world granted it. More when the world diluted your desires, you wanted more. Fear your desires, what you wanted could destroy you. Who are you going to resent? At his wishes, at the world that had granted them? The game of steam trains is when you want poison, but you are given a diluted version of poison for reasons of humanity.
I see people playing trains. From the plus you create an idol and run after him as if tied. Minus, on the contrary, runs after you, and you neglect it. If you behave with a minus at least half as with a plus, it will free you from slavish dependence on a plus.
The meaning of the locomotive is that a person splits his consciousness into two parts and he has two groups of needs. A man exalts half of himself, and denies the other half. As a result, the ideal angelic half is looking for one thing, and the demonic half is looking for another. And both these halves want the diametrically opposite. Moreover, each of them feels a lack of integrity, is looking for his half and is very tormented by an inferiority complex when he does not get what he wants.
Narcissists are doomed to play trains because their love is divided into two parts. On the one hand, they want to be loved and cared for. That is, they want to be the Masters. On the other hand, they realize their need to care and love other people, acting as servants and slaves.
In private life, neurotics are forever playing a game called trains. The passive neurotic runs after the active neurotic, and the active neurotic runs after the isolated neurotic. The isolated neurotic thinks he is perfect and wants to be found, but he does not want to be possessed. An active neurotic, sees the ideal and longs to capture it. The passive neurotic sees the active ideal and wants to submit to it.
When a neurotic personality splits, it creates the premise that each sub-personality will have its own needs, and they will fall in love with different people. That is why neurotics constantly play the engine, when one part of him loves an inaccessible idol, and the other enjoys an idolater whom he despises, but against whose background he realizes his idea. about the ideal.
The game of locomotives is an allegory on the theme of the called and chosen. As soon as a person has a dream, he has two options for its execution. The first path is the path of insurmountable obstacles and Titanic tensions. This path repeats the fate of Sisyphus. This is the best path on which human pride rushes with all its fury. However, there is a second way for those who have subdued their pride, there is not a better way, but a good way. On this path, a person focuses on what comes into his hands and enjoys life. The path of pride is the hard path of distrust, suffering and doubt leading to hell. The path of humility of pride is an easy path of joy, faith and hope leading to paradise. God, who is hope, makes an offer to man to be called, If man accepts the offer, he will be chosen. If a person does not accept the offer, he will not become the Chosen One, but will, like a horse in its pride, do everything on its own.
The difference between rushing and being late is the same as between running before or after a locomotive. There is a fundamental difference – to run in front of the locomotive, behind the locomotive and in the locomotive. Those who managed to catch the train, they go in comfort, and others are like horses.
The narcissist man has a good wife, a codependent idolater who idolizes him and makes an idol out of him. However, the man is a fake idol, and he is bored in paradise, and wants more. A man neglects his wife, and found himself an idol lover, and became addicted to her. What should a man do? There are four options. The option is correct: to leave his wife and go to his mistress in order to free his wife from idolatry and, having turned into slavery himself, to feel on his own skin what his wife felt. The tricky option: leave both women and find a new one. The smart option: leave your mistress and stay with your wife. The easiest option is called Shabbat. Shabbat is when you are useless, do not twitch, do not show initiative, are silent and trust the will of the waves.
An idol is perfect, and an idolater is imperfect. Moreover, it should be remembered that perfection is truth, and truth is a relative and subjective concept. That is, an idol is perfect with respect to an idolater, but with respect to another idolater, he himself will become an imperfect idolater.
Most of the problems are happening from the fact that a person is trying to run ahead of the locomotive. The future is infinitely diverse, the eyes run away from fear. In this sense, it is useful to focus on the real and accessible, it is limited and understandable. The future in this sense is uncertain, limitless and inspires a lot of unnecessary fears or unfounded hopes.
The problem Anna Karenina's fault was that she jumped ahead of the locomotive. Take note of this, take care of today and do not run ahead of the locomotive.
We can say that the Ouroboros serpent is a symbol illustrating everything that turns people's lives into hell. Ouroboros is a symbol of pride, neurosis, idolatry, train games, etc.
Most people have an inferiority complex, and therefore all their values and judgments are turned inside out. For example, it is known that the more a neurotic loves, the more he is disliked. By the way, narcissistic megalomania is also an inferiority complex.
Evil begets evil. First, someone does evil for you, and you pass this evil on, becoming a link in the chain of evil. To stop evil, when evil happens, immediately do good within a few hours. Then you will become the beginning of good and put an end to evil. You will become a big letter at the beginning of a new line of good, and not an ordinary letter in the chain of evil.