The essence of the incredible ease of being is that in order to get to hell, you need to make a great effort. Hell is full and there are no places. Moths are ready to bite each other's throats for the right to be in hell. In Paradise, on the contrary, it is free and spacious. No one needs Paradise except those who have love in them.
To accept is to let go. The excess desire is the cause of failure and resistance. Those who crave love and pleasure are doomed to lack them. Those who have accepted the small things will get everything they want and the hunger will pass.
The parable of the wheat and tares can be understood from the point of view that do not rush to be happy or afraid ahead of time. Do not rush to solve problems ahead of time, many of them will disappear by themselves. Do not rush to share an unkillable bear, ... everything changes very quickly, and it even happens that it changes many times in a row.
Before you fall in love with the illusion of feelings or are afraid of them, try to compare this situation with the movie. You're smart enough not to fall in love with movies and go crazy with horror movies, aren't you? You should treat all your other emotions in the same way.
Your chronic fatigue is due to the fact that you are fighting your fears by erecting a barrier of denial against them. Fears need not be feared, fear is a friend... it comes not to destroy, but to save from Vice and sin.
You should relax in the sense that yours comes to you easily enough, but what does not come to you, and you try to grab it by force – this is clearly someone else's. Everything superfluous is done with great difficulty. So you don't have to be afraid of anything, but just calmly do what you have to do.