There is no hope, do not torment yourself, because hope generates movement, and movement is the realization of what is expected. If you lose hope, you lose movement. Movement is life, no life, no fruitfulness.
To succeed in life, you need to look at the world through the paradigm of hope. Look at problems, troubles, and bad luck as good luck and a good opportunity. Gather all your willpower, and, with a crunch and crackle, switch the paradigm inside yourself, turn on the light.
If you think you have only a few options, you are clearly blind. You should have at least an infinite number of options. Look around carefully and try to do something very crazy and strange, but extremely simple and worthless, but with hope... without hope is not possible.
Hope cannot be lost or found. Hope is a constant. There is always hope inside you and outside of you. Hope within you requires faith in yourself, that is, your own actions. Hope outside of oneself requires trust in the outside world, based on the idea that the world is good.
To lose hope is a judgment of pride. The fact is that as long as a person is alive, he has hope for himself. You can only lose your hope for external factors, but this is not a loss of hope, but the humility of your thirst for power and pride, that is, rather good than harm.