Of course, my desire to get The Nobel prize is pure pride and vanity. But at the same time it was a great motivator that allowed you to start a long journey, which resulted in true love and created a huge number of wonderful things. Moreover, this path itself was wonderful and joyful. Remember the saying about every soldier who had to have a Marshal's baton in his backpack. It is not a fact that each of us will become a Marshal, but the idea itself has generated a lot of different useful effects.
To gain freedom, you need a huge unfulfilled desire. I want the Nobel prize, and I'll never get it, and that's why I'm a loser. I should accept that I am a failure, but not give up the goal. Having been able to move towards my goals without hoping to achieve results, I found freedom.
The Nobel prize itself is a bad dream, because it is an ode to vanity, but if you sublimate the prophet into a useful channel, for example, finding the truth, the root cause, improvement, creating hundreds of books, a cure for neurosis, pride, and a Legion of other diseases... all this becomes like the truth. Vice is an energy that needs to be sublimated into a socially useful channel.
I want to The Nobel prize, and I'll get it! – And if you don't get it?" It doesn't matter, I'll still want her! My resolve will not be broken by any resistance. Rejection won't make me back down and stop wanting. Does the water recede from the shore because it doesn't give up?
A properly set goal is a determination to do everything possible and impossible, and then come what may. I want to The Nobel prize and, therefore, I am determined to do everything possible from me to become worthy of my goal.
To hell with the Nobel prize, I'm ready to wait for it, endlessly having some stable position with a salary and housing attached to it. Theoretically, the book "Variothoughts" could be written forever, given the inexhaustibility of the truth, but I am constantly plagued by financial and housing issues. Eight years of making money out of thin air by devoting all your time to writing a book, but is this fortune permanent?