You need to look at the problem creatively. First, you don't need to immediately believe in everything you don't like. Secondly, it happens that if you change a couple of details in something that doesn't work, it will miraculously work.
You will be prevented from achieving your goal from both sides at once. On the one hand, it will be hard, painful, and scary for you... it's a whip. And on the other hand, the carrot will whisper to you that you need to do this and that. That is, the message will sound like this: drop this bad business and do something useful.
Do not give in to provocations, you need to love yourself. To love yourself means to protect your health and not allow yourself to be afraid. Fear is very bad for everything. Don't believe in fear, just don't believe. Especially do not sublimate it into anger, aggression, laziness, sadness and apathy.
You should not believe your fears, but you should respect them. Tell the fear ... well, I understand you. Of course, fears are lies, but the illusions of non-existence are huge and require respect. Disrespect for Nothing is a very bad idea.
Don't be afraid of future fears. Fear of speaking in front of the dead end and fire. But that will be in seven days, and today you can still move and grow… Go straight into the fire, but look carefully around, somewhere on the side there will be a detour.
The purpose of the devil's temptations is to deprive you of your faith... that is, to restrict your movements. The devil undermines your faith with doubts. The devil tempts you with pleasure and rest... " Why should you go anywhere? - says the devil... - lie down, rest, and let it make itself. I'll give you everything, just wait."
Before you fall in love with the illusion of feelings or are afraid of them, try to compare this situation with the movie. You're smart enough not to fall in love with movies and go crazy with horror movies, aren't you? You should treat all your other emotions in the same way.