Indeed, I am not afraid of you from afar, but I am afraid of you near. There is nothing strange about this. You're a dog, dogs bite, I'm afraid you'll bite me. There is no cowardice in fear, just common sense.
Take it… Don't run away. Let go... Don't hold it. That's the whole secret. It's very simple. Don't be a coward. Be reasonable. The pain will be sharp, but quick. Otherwise, your life will turn into hell.
The difference between a shepherd and a wolf is that the shepherd is reserved, patient, and reasonable, while the wolf is greedy, impatient, and ignorant. A shepherd is a wolf in sheep's clothing who loves his enemy.
Before you fall in love with the illusion of feelings or are afraid of them, try to compare this situation with the movie. You're smart enough not to fall in love with movies and go crazy with horror movies, aren't you? You should treat all your other emotions in the same way.
Do what you can do, even if there are many things that are better but not available. You should choose the best available. To suffer for something that is not there is foolishness, ignorance, and pride.