Your life is pain and suffering, you live in hell. You are always suffering, explaining this for many reasons, but the true reason is one: you are stricken like rot, pride, and do not want to repent and atone for your sins.
When the proud man who lives in hell comes to the river Styx, he sees himself. To escape from hell, you need to break the mirror metaphorically, kill yourself and your identity. Repentance is passing through a mirror-killing your old Self and creating a new Self, free from the bondage of pleasure.
Repentance is change. Repent, change all your emotions and feelings diametrically. Where you were afraid, angry, and crying, now you should be happy and smiling. Repentance is salvation from all your sufferings.
You've been relying on others all your life, and it's filled you with fear. To overcome fear, you need to repent, that is, change your mind. When fear disappears and becomes love, the world of illusions collapses. And that's what they call Armageddon. Love will give birth to a new sprout of real life, small at first, but eventually it will grow stronger.
The search for truth should begin with the hope of happiness. Truth is joyous, truth is love. Lies create fear, fear is hunger and all our suffering. How to get rid of suffering? Find the truth! The lack of knowledge of the truth is ignorance, so the way to happiness is through knowing and denying lies. The liar sees everything through the paradigm of lies and therefore suffers. To know the truth, you must repent, that is, change your mind so that you can prove to yourself that a lie is true.
Repentance is the realization that in a barrel of honey with a fly in the ointment, the most valuable thing is honey, not tar... on the other hand, tar is also useful. In the soup with flies, flies are also not necessary for everyone.
A proud person is someone who easily repents of bad deeds, and long worries and torments about good ones. If a proud man does a good deed and is not paid, he is offended and tormented for a long time. The proud are happy to pay for vices, but they demand a reward for good deeds. Proud people are unhappy people, their life is suffering, disease and hell.
The question is not what kind of drug you have... the question is that you are an addict, and the meaning of your life is the search for pleasure. Yesterday you found pleasure in one, today in another, tomorrow you will find it in a third… It doesn't change anything. You need to realize that pleasure itself is a poison that can only be used in very moderate amounts.
A new life begins with hope. But what is life? Life is what the mind sees… Consciousness sees the world through the prism of its beliefs and dominant ideas. So in order to change your life, you need to change your beliefs as well as your dominant beliefs.