Let's be honest. For many reasons I'm not going to win the Nobel Prize. However, I hope for luck. I hope for luck all my life. I'm already lucky to live to be 40. Anything could have happened to me countless times, but I'm still relatively alive. That's what I call a miracle.
Why would you The Nobel Prize? Why? I need money. I'd buy a house. A lot of people have a home, but I don't. How can an ant live without an anthill? Of course, while I was chasing the Nobel Prize, I spent a lot more money than this prize. Lost a lot of houses and could have built a lot of others, but that's not the point. The point of the game is, it's a matter of principle. Although they say that money does not smell and it does not matter how to earn it. I don't agree. I believe that this is a fundamental question, how exactly to earn money with which to build a house. A beloved home should be built with money earned by doing what you love. Love must beget love. Stupid, of course, but I like stupid things.
In fact, the goal is to get The Nobel Prize is very positive and beneficial for personal growth. We know that in order to realize our goal, we must know it and all that concerns it. The Nobel Prize motivated me to study the books and thoughts of all Nobel laureates. Then I thought that I needed to strengthen the position, and studied the writers who won the Pulitzer Prize and the Booker Prize. Then I looked at other international awards. And before that, I read all the classics and philosophers. It is difficult to describe what a gigantic amount of joy, beauty and knowledge was revealed to me in the process of all this business.
I want to get A Nobel prize in order to get a position as a Professor at some good University, so that the salary would be enough to support me and my family. I always do I wanted to teach, inspire souls, light up hearts. Of course, The Nobel prize is not the easiest and most direct path to teaching, but I am not looking for easy ways, I like the process.
One day I arrived to Stockholm and stayed at the hotel suite which windows faced the building where Nobel prizes were awarded. A very symbolic building with a lighthouse on its roof. Half the night I looked at its light and thought about different things. Finally I thought: "How symbolic that it was the inventor of dynamite who established that prizes. As everything this prize is given for, resembles an explosion, even our Universe was formed after the big bang.
P.S. It occured to me that if I was awarded a Nobel prize, I would spend money mostly on painters and a bit on children.
Reflecting on vanity and greed, I thought that my vain idea of a Nobel prize of one million dollars had already cost me three million dollars and 12 years of life. On the other hand, I now have a dream of serving beauty, truth, and utility ...and by serving them, I have found happiness that is worth more than any money or time. By the way, the Nobel prize, I still couldn't, say, who are you anyway? We don't know you, go away, you vain fool... But I'm not offended, I'm already resigned to reality and used to it.
When I was 32 years old, I lay on my couch at home and thought about the structure of life. It suddenly dawned on me that our world is 100% like an artificial intelligence system whose goal is to create and store information. My father was passing by. I was so taken aback by this idea that I told him vainly that I had just come up with an idea for which I would be awarded the Nobel prize. My father looked at me as if I were an idiot and went on. Since then, 7 years have passed, I don't have any Nobel prize, but I wrote 43 thousand texts of "Variothoughts" and even brightened up a little.
Of course, my desire to get The Nobel prize is pure pride and vanity. But at the same time it was a great motivator that allowed you to start a long journey, which resulted in true love and created a huge number of wonderful things. Moreover, this path itself was wonderful and joyful. Remember the saying about every soldier who had to have a Marshal's baton in his backpack. It is not a fact that each of us will become a Marshal, but the idea itself has generated a lot of different useful effects.
To gain freedom, you need a huge unfulfilled desire. I want the Nobel prize, and I'll never get it, and that's why I'm a loser. I should accept that I am a failure, but not give up the goal. Having been able to move towards my goals without hoping to achieve results, I found freedom.
The Nobel prize itself is a bad dream, because it is an ode to vanity, but if you sublimate the prophet into a useful channel, for example, finding the truth, the root cause, improvement, creating hundreds of books, a cure for neurosis, pride, and a Legion of other diseases... all this becomes like the truth. Vice is an energy that needs to be sublimated into a socially useful channel.
I want to The Nobel prize, and I'll get it! – And if you don't get it?" It doesn't matter, I'll still want her! My resolve will not be broken by any resistance. Rejection won't make me back down and stop wanting. Does the water recede from the shore because it doesn't give up?
A properly set goal is a determination to do everything possible and impossible, and then come what may. I want to The Nobel prize and, therefore, I am determined to do everything possible from me to become worthy of my goal.
To hell with the Nobel prize, I'm ready to wait for it, endlessly having some stable position with a salary and housing attached to it. Theoretically, the book "Variothoughts" could be written forever, given the inexhaustibility of the truth, but I am constantly plagued by financial and housing issues. Eight years of making money out of thin air by devoting all your time to writing a book, but is this fortune permanent?